a blast with my friends =)

well it all started this morning

breakfast as usual..

then go sch..

studies like normal..

until a stupid person starts scolding me n vivian..

wht i can say is FUCK OFF MY LIFE MAN!

think ur eye so sharp ar?

go see ur bloody pants then oni say ur eys so sharp!

lebih la u!

nvm about that...

we kena scold for being late

cuz of CERTAIN ppl...

biasa la..

think they miss glam gurl ma...

mcm sial la u...

nvm nvm...

fast forward to the party

had fun with everyone

n with all my babes =)

gonna miss ya babe

ur great in everyway.

=)

n i will always love u.

then went bk early,cant stand the icky cake smell on me.but it was worth having fun! =))

Starting a NEW life~

I am going to start a new life today onwards!

I'm gonna forget about the past and continue life!

OK~!I BLAME ALL THE FAULTS ON ME!

I DONT CARE ANYMORE!

YOU JUST NEED TO GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

I'm done crying for you.

I'm done with everything for and with you.

My heart is already weak enough.

I've lost.

I give up.

AND I WONT CARE FOR YOU ANYMORE.

I get what you want.

I know your MUCH happier without me.

Better I just move on.

I will promise myself and only MYSELF!

The last time I'm gonna wear your shirt that you gave me.

The last time I'm gonna see your pictures.

The last time I'm gonna contact you as a lover.

The last time I say "I love you"

The last time I'm gonna keep your messages.

But I cant forget and throw one thing.

My teddy bear that you gave me.

I will always remember that teddy and that day.

IM SORRY.

and this is the LAST I'm gonna cry for a person like you.

Im gonna promise that.

Evelyn mei....REMEMBER OUR PROMISE.

We must PROMISE each other to forget those kind of people.

The people who have sacked us.

The people who broke our heart.

The people who doesn't care at all.

WE MUST FORGET EVERYTHING!

and

this

is

my

STARTING

OF

MY

NEW

LIFE

!

Joycelyn...emo_gurl

Meaningful..MUST READ

know the meaning of kns?


well,its ka na sai!


cuz it suits u


shit



fuck



rubbish



damn u




thinking...will things change or not?

until now its the same..

next week is our tests...

n its ur spm

seriously..y am i even still thinking about u when i shouldnt


uve treated me until like this,n i should still fall for u?


eventhough i may say these things...

it hurts my heart as well as my soul

i feel weaker by the moment~

i need to be stronger

but i duno how...

i need back up...

i need support...

i need LOVE

but that wont exist to me now...

i dont wanna find..

cuz i still love the same guy

until now,it cant come out of me

ppl say why?

i say idk~

ppl may say he's a jerk..

but in my heart..its painful




what i wish to do is...


to go to the beach


n to be

~calm
~release stress
~feel the breeze
~feel the wind in my hair
~relax
~forget things
~peaceful
~in my own world...


the beach is where i can be myself
i can be quiet n release stress


but what i miss most is i miss both mum's...
brandon's n my mom...
brandon's mom has been my god mother for the past year over
its been so nice~
she was like my best friend to me
i tell her things,she will understand
i really do miss her
sometimes i wish to call her..
but i will just feel like crying...
when talk about her,also i feel like crying now~
she was a really kind n loving lady
she understands me,n i understand her

my mom...i miss her too much
until i can cry everyday
its not the same without having a mom beside u everyday
i see girls at my age having a mother beside u everyday or even a sister...

i DONT...
i must be independent towards myself
i need to do things on my own
i need to go through tough times even when my mom is not around
its hard for me to suffer like this
this isnt the 1st time
but as i grow older,i feel i need her more
i feel pain...
suffering...
when she aint around..
its not the same...
when she is around
u can see my in joy
now..u can see me in sorrow
for the past 5 years...i have to stay like this..
i only have me n myself

eventhough before i had a companion beside me
it still isnt the same
cuz a girl always needs her mother beside them no matter what
n i need mines...


this is why i have brandon's mom
thanks to her..i can tell her things n she would understand
she may be busy at times..
but its okay~

ill just continue with life
being in full of sorrow
ii just wish to leave this place for awhile
n to come back when im alrite
i just wish...
that i could be
~happy again...
~to smile again
~to be ME again
~to feel love again
~to have fun again


i just want my OLD life back
i think what i wrote 2dy,is meaningful



i hope u guys like it this....
it took my effort to write this

THANKS FOR READING PEOPLE~

Joycelyn...the emo gurl

17.11.10 a day with friends! =))

had an awesome time with vivian n aaron

~makan

~movie

~bubble tea

~gossip

~shopping

~taking picz

~etc

aaron n me

me n vivian

me,vivian n aaron



me,vivian n aaron after the movie

me n vivian b4 the movie

before the movie

~me

~vivian

~vivian

overall,i had fun

it made me forget things

but it kinda reminds me of u~

idk why though

but it reminds me of u

but its okays

i met a new friend

i had fun with my good friend vivian~

i had sushi king 2dy^^

gossiping alot!=))

jalan jalan alot!!=))

having fun the whole day!

taking loads of picz! =)))))

joycelyn~emo gurl

♥ dedicate this to my other mei♥

Annie will forever be my mei!

Annie

~i will always love my mei~

♥ dedicate this page to my mei♥

Evelyn Lyn

evelyn will always be my mei

the one that has been on my side for a very long time.

~i will always love her~