Christmas Eve

Went Portugese Settlement with Annie =)

Took many picz, u can go FB and see =)

My 1st Christmas Eve celebrated since I came to Malaysia!

Quite nice the decorations.

But sadly felt the pain so much that day.

Last year was with you, this year no.

You were with someone else.

SIGH....

I kept worrying the whole nite if I was going to see you or not..

Kept looking left n rite

Haiz.....

But most of all,had fun with Annie, she was with me the whole time.

Even if her friends came she even stayed with me =)

Haiyo, see one of her friends...REALLY MADE ME DAMN PISSED OFF!

NO OFFENCE,SHE IS A DAMN BITCH!

Come on la, people already ajak a person n yet u wanna take her away ar?

Please la, you got ur own date. DONT SHOW OFF PLEASE LA!

That really spoilt my mood sial....

Went Portugese at around 8ish~

Jalan jalan around

Bought Christmas hat! =)

Bought a drink, wanted to eat so badly cuz the whole day din even eat.

Haiz..but no appetite to eat.

So went back only eat a piece of bread.

Stayed there till midnite! COUNTDOWN!

3

2

1

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

People spraying here and there.

People hugging each other, saw couples kissing...

Remembering our kiss...

Time does fly...

Went back around 1ish,then TRAFFIC!!

Got back around 1.40am!

N slept around 4! =)

My driver DONG =)

haha,jk jk :P

Met him after countdown.

Was at the seaside with Annie.

Then he walk over...MERRY CHRISTMAS...

as usual...

Exchanged gifts =)

Talked awhile...

NONSENSE LA HIM..LMAO! =)

Then follow him over to his friends.

Meeting his friends.

Then stay with Annie until he say cabut.

Seeing Sin Yee at Portugese was awesome!

Was sitting with Annie then saw her spraying her friends.

Called her name "Sin Yee!!"

SUDDENLY!

SHE SPARY ME!

AHHH!!!!!!!

Kena all spray!

hahahaha

That was nice! =))

Tried to find a spray to spray her back!

Got 1!

HAAHHAAH!!!

MY TURN TO SPRAY!!! =)))

SPRAAAYYYY!!!!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

IN THE END...

I HAD FUN AT NITE =)))

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! =))

Christmas Eve

2dy is my day to have fun....

early morning got up....

couldnt sleep well last nite....

then went over to seafarer for practice...

~FLORENCE~RADIANCE~WENDY~

the babes i adore =))

went there talked awhile,then practiced...

BOLLYWOOD STYLE! =))

cant wait till the 31st....gonna have fun....

water sports....

etc.....

becoming usher..cool~ =)

There is nothing to do~

Well...





there is nothing much to do now...





I miss life alot...





i miss my loved one alot...





i miss my family alot....






wishing that u would come back...





but that will never happen....





its almost christmas...





but i dont have anything to do~





i just miss him alot...





i dont have any feeling for anyone like him...





he's just different...





now its different now....





u may hate me,u may pity me,i dont know.....





but all i know is that i still love u with every bit of my heart....





eventhought i may have new friends...





new ppl who like me~





i dont have any feelings for any of them....





im sorry~





they've asked me to give them a chance....





but i dont know.....





i dont feel like starting another love life....





cuz it will just sack my heart like how u sacked mines....





what i dont get is that,how can u find a gurl that u only know for how long n now ur with here...





after breaking up,u can terus find 1 gurl n sms her n all...






not only her...but others....MY FRIENDS...u damn desperate is it?






im just asking...have u ever appreciated what ive gave u?






those long nites i had to accompany u....





but all in return is just i get a broken heart full of shit....





i guess im worth a better guy~i really loved u...





just like my adik say...why u love him when he just play u around?





im speechless....





u wanna be like that,then thats u....





but i will never forget what u have done.....





haiz......

2011 is coming...

life needs to start differently...

need to be happy..

need to forget the past..

need to forget u...

need to forget everything that happened between me n u...

need to LIVE properly...

needs a better life...

JUST GOTTA CONTINUE LIFE....

HOPE MY 16TH BIRTHDAY WILL BE GOOD....

I SO BET THAT U WONT EVEN GET ME A BIRTHDAY PRESENT OR EVEN WISH ME!!!

JOYCELYN..THE EMO GURL...

the ones i love the most ♥

Annie n Evelyn


Brandon

Evelyn

Kelvin

Heng Yee

Vivian

Elsa

Kazu

Li Pin

Beginning of my holiday~

December 16,2010


My last day of school for the YEAR 2010! =)
HAPPY!!=))

Had fun in school with my friends. They are just the best,always by my side. FOREVER AND ALWAYS. =))

I CANT FORGET ANY OF THEM!
~Vivian
~Li Pin
~Elsa
~Jin Young
~Sobri
~Kazu

They are all the best.

After school ended, Vivian, Sobri n his sisters, Devi, Kazu, Jin Young...

Went DP~
Play DAYTONA~
WATCH TRON~
Play pool~
Makan dinner~
Went back around 7 plus with Kazu~talked alot~His mum is funny n a great sense of humour.

Went back to grandma's house then watch TV awhile, then cousins say go watch movie again~
Went DP again~
Watch TRON again~ LMAO!!
Went back around 12 plus~
Slept around 2 plus~


today had an awesome time with my friends!!!i will never forget them!!! =))
HAD SUCH AN AWESOME TIME! =))
pool was nice!
daytona also nice!
makan okok la!
going back nice~
nite also nice!
cousins n i!fun!watch movie!
midnight time~FACEBOOK! =))
December 17, 2010

Woke up around 5.30am~
Got ready~
Go on bus,slept the most of the time~
Met auntie~
Go eat McD~
Go Mid Valley n The Gardens Mall~
Go Nihon Kai Japanese Restaurant~
Went back rest~
Go Sri Petaling~
Sit LRT~
Sit monorail~
Go Pavillion~
Bought shorts~
Go Star Hill~
Eat Jogoya Buffet Japanese Restaurant~costing each person RM88++....but worth eating!! =))
Go to monorail station~
Sit monorail~so many ppl!until squeeze so much!
Went to LRT station~
Sit LRT~
Reach Sri Petaling~
Sit car go back~
Reach auntie place~
On facebook~
Bathe~
On facebook~
Sleep at 2 something~



today...went shopping n all..was damn tired!but had quite fun 2dy..laughed alot during dinner time..specially the coconut n the fork...damn funny sial!

but when shopping..haiz....shop awhile saw a baju that has B!
WHT THE FUCK MAN!OUT OF ALL SHIRTS...WHY B!!!!!!!!!

XIA SHUI!!!!!

THAT CHANGED MY MOOD FOR ABIT......

BUT ITS OK~
ill be ok~
but was really tired today..but i had fun especially!!! =)))))

December 18,2010

Got up at 10~
Get ready~
Went to Mines Resort~
Eat Delifrance~
Jalan jalan awhile~
Got a call from dad~mood changed after that...cried in public!haiz....
Went to eat lunch~no appetite to eat....
Went Jusco~bought some things...
Went back to Auntie's place~
On facebook...



Today was quite boring...didnt do much...
Was so pissed off...had no mood to do anything...
sometimes really wish to leave or die..
sometimes i dont get people
when i say the truth,they think im lying...
n i get the blame for every damn thing...
why is that so?
come on la...i wanna lie,i wouldnt be a good child d...
AND I AM..I DIDNT LIE TO U ABOUT MY STUDIES OR WHAT OKAY!
GET THINGS CLEAR! IM A CHILD WHO WILL DO PROPER THINGS!
I DONT DO STUPID THINGS!

haiz..but u dont wanna believe i have no choice...
my possessions...hp...computer..all gone in less then 24 hrs...
haiz....

fucking xia shui after the break up...
all bad things happen!!!!
anything GOOD!?!!!NO!!!!
fuck la....

DAMN XIA SHUI!

DONT KNOW WHO TO BLAME!BLAME MYSELF!!!!!!

Evelyn, Annie, Xiao Ying, Heng Yee, Li Pin, etc~

I will be ok.

Eventhough Im sad, you guys been through my ups n downs.

Im glad I have babes like u!

I wont forget u all!

If it weren't for u guys, there wouldnt be me!

I may cry,but I will be strong.

I may be sad, I will be strong.

Dont worry k babes.

I LOVE YOU ALL!

I LOVE ALL MY BABES!

I LOVE MOST OF MY CLASSMATES!

I LOVE MOST OF MY SCHOOLMATES!

I LOVE MY OUTSIDE FRIENDS!

THE THEINS~I WONT EVER FORGET U ALL.

~Kelvin

~Wendy

~Florence

~Trisha

~Peter

~Evon

~Daryl

~Bryan

~Sharon

~Shereena

~Mei Ching

~Boon Siew

~Danny

~Eugene

~Uncle Mike

~Auntie Cassie

~Mum

~Uncle Song

etc.....

AND MY LOVED ONE...Brandon Thein Wen Cheng

I wont forget u all, I had very fun memories with you all! =))

Im glad I met u all for the past 5 years! =))

TIME FLIES! =))

I wont forget any of my friends!

They are all the best!

Evelyn n Annie

Dont worry kay~

Jie will be alright~

Jie will always be by ur sides~

Dont worry~

~I LOVE YOU ALL~

joycelyn...the emo gurl....

a blast with my friends =)

well it all started this morning

breakfast as usual..

then go sch..

studies like normal..

until a stupid person starts scolding me n vivian..

wht i can say is FUCK OFF MY LIFE MAN!

think ur eye so sharp ar?

go see ur bloody pants then oni say ur eys so sharp!

lebih la u!

nvm about that...

we kena scold for being late

cuz of CERTAIN ppl...

biasa la..

think they miss glam gurl ma...

mcm sial la u...

nvm nvm...

fast forward to the party

had fun with everyone

n with all my babes =)

gonna miss ya babe

ur great in everyway.

=)

n i will always love u.

then went bk early,cant stand the icky cake smell on me.but it was worth having fun! =))

Starting a NEW life~

I am going to start a new life today onwards!

I'm gonna forget about the past and continue life!

OK~!I BLAME ALL THE FAULTS ON ME!

I DONT CARE ANYMORE!

YOU JUST NEED TO GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

I'm done crying for you.

I'm done with everything for and with you.

My heart is already weak enough.

I've lost.

I give up.

AND I WONT CARE FOR YOU ANYMORE.

I get what you want.

I know your MUCH happier without me.

Better I just move on.

I will promise myself and only MYSELF!

The last time I'm gonna wear your shirt that you gave me.

The last time I'm gonna see your pictures.

The last time I'm gonna contact you as a lover.

The last time I say "I love you"

The last time I'm gonna keep your messages.

But I cant forget and throw one thing.

My teddy bear that you gave me.

I will always remember that teddy and that day.

IM SORRY.

and this is the LAST I'm gonna cry for a person like you.

Im gonna promise that.

Evelyn mei....REMEMBER OUR PROMISE.

We must PROMISE each other to forget those kind of people.

The people who have sacked us.

The people who broke our heart.

The people who doesn't care at all.

WE MUST FORGET EVERYTHING!

and

this

is

my

STARTING

OF

MY

NEW

LIFE

!

Joycelyn...emo_gurl

Meaningful..MUST READ

know the meaning of kns?


well,its ka na sai!


cuz it suits u


shit



fuck



rubbish



damn u




thinking...will things change or not?

until now its the same..

next week is our tests...

n its ur spm

seriously..y am i even still thinking about u when i shouldnt


uve treated me until like this,n i should still fall for u?


eventhough i may say these things...

it hurts my heart as well as my soul

i feel weaker by the moment~

i need to be stronger

but i duno how...

i need back up...

i need support...

i need LOVE

but that wont exist to me now...

i dont wanna find..

cuz i still love the same guy

until now,it cant come out of me

ppl say why?

i say idk~

ppl may say he's a jerk..

but in my heart..its painful




what i wish to do is...


to go to the beach


n to be

~calm
~release stress
~feel the breeze
~feel the wind in my hair
~relax
~forget things
~peaceful
~in my own world...


the beach is where i can be myself
i can be quiet n release stress


but what i miss most is i miss both mum's...
brandon's n my mom...
brandon's mom has been my god mother for the past year over
its been so nice~
she was like my best friend to me
i tell her things,she will understand
i really do miss her
sometimes i wish to call her..
but i will just feel like crying...
when talk about her,also i feel like crying now~
she was a really kind n loving lady
she understands me,n i understand her

my mom...i miss her too much
until i can cry everyday
its not the same without having a mom beside u everyday
i see girls at my age having a mother beside u everyday or even a sister...

i DONT...
i must be independent towards myself
i need to do things on my own
i need to go through tough times even when my mom is not around
its hard for me to suffer like this
this isnt the 1st time
but as i grow older,i feel i need her more
i feel pain...
suffering...
when she aint around..
its not the same...
when she is around
u can see my in joy
now..u can see me in sorrow
for the past 5 years...i have to stay like this..
i only have me n myself

eventhough before i had a companion beside me
it still isnt the same
cuz a girl always needs her mother beside them no matter what
n i need mines...


this is why i have brandon's mom
thanks to her..i can tell her things n she would understand
she may be busy at times..
but its okay~

ill just continue with life
being in full of sorrow
ii just wish to leave this place for awhile
n to come back when im alrite
i just wish...
that i could be
~happy again...
~to smile again
~to be ME again
~to feel love again
~to have fun again


i just want my OLD life back
i think what i wrote 2dy,is meaningful



i hope u guys like it this....
it took my effort to write this

THANKS FOR READING PEOPLE~

Joycelyn...the emo gurl

17.11.10 a day with friends! =))

had an awesome time with vivian n aaron

~makan

~movie

~bubble tea

~gossip

~shopping

~taking picz

~etc

aaron n me

me n vivian

me,vivian n aaron



me,vivian n aaron after the movie

me n vivian b4 the movie

before the movie

~me

~vivian

~vivian

overall,i had fun

it made me forget things

but it kinda reminds me of u~

idk why though

but it reminds me of u

but its okays

i met a new friend

i had fun with my good friend vivian~

i had sushi king 2dy^^

gossiping alot!=))

jalan jalan alot!!=))

having fun the whole day!

taking loads of picz! =)))))

joycelyn~emo gurl

♥ dedicate this to my other mei♥

Annie will forever be my mei!

Annie

~i will always love my mei~

♥ dedicate this page to my mei♥

Evelyn Lyn

evelyn will always be my mei

the one that has been on my side for a very long time.

~i will always love her~