Stop and Stare.

Stop and stare.

It's been a really long time since I've 'gone out'.

Always going out to study and maybe sometimes seeing you for JUST awhile.

It's kinda heart aching when we didn't go 'out' for a really long time.

Holding back the tears and all. But, it's okay. Rather than not seeing you is still worth it.

I can say the last time we've gone out was when I came back, like a month ago.

Sigh, it's been hard for me these few weeks. Being upset and all.

But, you'll always cheer me up. Thank you. ♥

Yeah, jealousy is definitely a problem. But, it's time to get used to it.

Having tears in my eyes like almost every day is a pain.

But after telling you that day, it upset me a lot but it also gave me the relief of telling you.

By not telling you hurts me even more.

Now you know the reason why all along.

I know I may not be perfect, but I try to be good enough.

There comes a time when you need friends by your side, we both do.

Yeah, feeling lonely at times. But, it's normal isn't it?

I may be cocky at times, but I don't mean it.

Sometimes the mood just comes and goes.

These few days my mood goes bizarre, urgh. :/

Even though, there may be ups and downs or whatever, there's always you and I♥ :)

You're always there for me, I'm there for you. But I know I'm not there all the time, I don't mean it. :/

Just to let you know, you are the apple of my eye♥

No matter what, how far or how near, there will always be you and I♥

Even if we're miles and miles away, just remember you and I♥

Apart from this, I thank one special friend who has been there whenever I'm down and happy♥

Thank you so much♥

I know I complain a lot, but thank you for listening♥

I know I made the right choice of saying this and that, but I did make a wrong choice saying this and that at times. x)

Thanks for teman-ing me when I need a friend to talk to♥

I know when you are down, you have like no one to talk to, I'm sorry:/

But, I'm always here for you and I always have a ear to listen to♥

There's this one thing we always say 'ForeverandAlways' :)

And yes, ForeverandAlways♥

Quiet.♥

Stop and stare.

Today's just so empty.

Not a single phrase.

Nothing.

Hurts.

Sigh..

It hurts more and more when the day is going to end soon..

What else could I ask for more?

Sigh..

Soo.........................speechless...

:'(

Stressed..

Not talking much...

It hurts..

Not much of time..

When I need it, then busy starts again..

Nothing much to say..

I feel so empty now..

Specially when it comes to the end of the day, with nothing..

Gloomy.

♥

NYC and boredom.

These 2 days I went to NYC :)

So bored..

Friday the 13th.

Went to NYC with Chitapa :)

Walked around and all, took the path train and all.

Then went around H & M, Forever 21 and other shops.

Then we took the path train again to 9th Street or something, then we went to Chitapa's dad's restaurant. :)

Makan loads of food, gosh. SO much I couldn't finish. I felt so bad. >.<

Then we just talked and talked.

We head our way to the path train and took the train back to NJ.

Then we waited for my mom and all. :)

I went to Liberty State Park and took pictures and all :D

Then went home, then ended my day like that ;)

Nothing much lah :)

Saturday, 1404'12

Went to NYC again :)

Went to the Museum and all, Central Park Rockefeller Center and other places I forgot.

Ate and all.

Nothing much happened. :)

I miss you loads <33333333

Every day it feels like crap.

I cry every night before going to bed, I cry to sleep. :(

I miss you loads :(

It doesn't feel right at all. :(

I just can't wait to go back and see you <3

Imisssyouuuuusooooomuch<3

See you real soon! <3

5 days! <3

Feeling so empty..

I feel lonely more and more each day..

What has happened?

It doesn't feel right anymore..

It feels so cold inside me..

I really wish this would resolve somehow..

Where's the you that I miss?

I miss all of that..

Things have changed so quick..

I've never felt so much pain in a long long time..

Once your hit, it'll be really hard to recover..

When I hear your voice it makes me cry..

I'm so speechless now..

I really wish things could go back to normal..

Ever since, I always look at my phone waiting to see a call or text from you, but I just smile and wait..

It's so hard living like this..

I may not show that I care about this, but I do..

I really do care..

It's so hard to show my feelings at times, thought you knew the whole time..

I just feel really speechless..

Where's the old you? :(

I don't wanna continue my days here with sadness, this all hurts.

Not eating..not drinking..no mood for anything..

Mom yells at me..

Sometimes, I just wish I could leave. Leave this place and scream..

I thought I could relax from stress, but I couldn't, it's worse..I wish things could go back to normal..

I feel like I got hit in the head with a bullet..

I really wish I could just talk to you and tell you everything..

It's not easy living like this..

It isn't, it really isn't...you just can't see how I suffer..

You may think I'm happy here, but without you, it's like being in hell. Life is like a piece of crap..

I don't want to be here..I wanna go home..

I wanna go home and just relax..

I feel so upset, I have no one to talk but the wall..

I want to tell you my problems, but now. It seems like it doesn't matter, and that hurts..

Gosh...iloveyou<3SO MUCH!

I wanna go home..

Life really sucks being here..

There isn't any happiness here..

Things changed..

It feels so apart too..

Sometimes I feel, are you happy without me...?

Sometimes I feel so empty, so cold..

I always hug my doggie and cry onto it.

It feels so hard..

I miss home more and more...

A heavy heart with a million pieces..

My day goes really slow, the only thing I wish is to see you, nothing more..

The days feels like years going by, it takes forever..

I don't know what to say, all my feelings are inside me and won't come out..

I'm crying every time..

I'm really sorry for everything..

I just keep crying and I'm really speechless..

Good Bye Malaysia

More than 2 weeks of not seeing you :(

Our date before I see you after 2 weeks. 3103'12

Earth Hour I saw Hani at Holiday Inn :D

Bro and I :)

A random shot of me :)

Family and I :)

Mum and I :)

10.30pm and not home :/

By far the most epic moment of 2012! :D

It sounds better with you♥

'Music Sounds Better With You'

It's kinda a rough day and I'm sorry.

Sorry for all the things I've done.

No matter how many times I say SORRY, I truly am sorry♥

I never knew I had someone so special in my life♥

A person that is always there for me♥

When I'm down, you are always there to make me happy♥

You're the one and only person that knows when to make me smile when I need it♥

No matter where I go, you always give me a smile♥

I'm so thankful to have someone like you♥

I don't express it, but I really do mean it♥

Love; trust is important♥

The trust that's in you, makes me believe I have someone that I will never let go♥

There's no one I can ever let go for♥

Cuz, you are the one and only one I could ever imagine♥

Day by day, I fall deeper for you♥

There's so many things we've gone through, ups and downs. And I'm glad it all happen, it's all cuz of ♥. :)

I learn how to get back up and smile, cuz of you. :)

I may sound snobby or cocky, but I don't mean all it.

I may sound rude or something, I don't mean anything at all.

I'm sorry for the ups and downs that I've caused.

Cuz, in all relationships. There are always ups and downs♥

I learn from there that the love is built stronger and stronger♥

I know its you and I till the very end♥

xoxo♥

*Loves+kisses+huggies*

'There's nothing in the world that can change that. It's you and I, forever and always♥'

Smile :)

Today was an awesome day despite my BM Oral Exam.

BM Oral Exam was friggin hard!

Never mind about that. It was all good.

Then mum came and I asked if I could go back early. She said it was okay, then I'm like OKAY! :D

So, I waited till 12.30pm and left school. :)

We went to Jonker and I bought cendol and my grandma came along and bought chicken rice. ;)

Went back to my grandma house for awhile, then went to dp. :)

Looked for parking and there was a parking spot. WOOHOO! :D

Walked around dp, went to Gold Apple and got my cousin's dress and then I wanted to buy Chatime and didn't buy it. So, its okay. :)

Went to the phone accessory shop and bought iPhone4s cover for my cousin, AGAIN.

After that, wanted to go San Shu Gong, but it closed down and I completely forgotten about it!

So we went to the feng shui shop and my mom bought me a Jade. :)

Thanks mommy♥

We went to Old Town and ate, I ate bread only.

Then my mom wanted to go and I wanted to go Educational Fair, so she stopped and I called my friends. They were around. So, I went to find them. They were eating and I asked one of them to teman me to go. But no one insisted.

SO, I walked through McD and I saw my friend. My friend asked where was I going, then I said to the Educational Fair. So my friend tagged along. I was busy looking at brochures while my friend was way behind me. I didn't bother much, sorry. Too busy looking at brochures. :)

After that, I saw the schools dismissed. So I looked around to see if I could find you♥

I finally did♥

It gave me a smile of my life♥

You do not know what were the feelings I had in me♥

It felt so good that I could see you today♥

I wished we could of taken a picture together, but there were TOO many people around.

So we walked around and all♥

I hope you felt the same way. :)

I'm really super duper happy to see you♥

The moment I saw you, all my emotions came running in and my heart was pumping real fast. I was incredibly REAL happy to see you♥

If there weren't people from your school, I'd hug you to bits and pieces.

I really can't wait to see you♥♥

I saw some other friends too. ;)

Specially one, a very good friend but yet annoying. He has a big mouth. TOO big in fact. But, it's alright. Used to his big mouth as a reporter. :)

No offence eh? :)

I can't wait till this weekend♥

I really can't wait♥

My friends and everybody♥

I can't waitttttt to see ya'll♥

Just 7 days to go till the day :)

Wheeee :)

♥♥♥♥♥ :D

See you real soon♥

I♥you♥

*huggies*

Time flies.

Random photography by one of my friends. :)

Imissyouu♥

1002'12♥

Huggies :)

2502'12♥

The last time we've seen each other till today, 2503'12♥

It's been a month since I've last seen you.

It's kinda hard not seeing each other for so long, but at least we still can talk to each other. :)

I'll be gone for 2 weeks, I hope you'll be fine without me. Immamissyoouu♥

I can't wait to see you! :D

Loves♥♥♥♥♥

1 more day. :O

Just only one day away from trials. I'm so stressed out and so not ready.

Today, was suppose to have tuition, 3 tuitions in fact.

The one in the morning called me at 9.30 saying she's coming when I'm gonna go JB, I thought she'd cancel it =.= That pissed me off.

Then when I came back from JB, I'm suppose to have another tuition at 5.30, then the teacher texted me saying she can't come. That really pissed me off =.=

Then I have another one at 7, she better come if not I'm a goner! =.=

Tomorrow's English, and I can go back at 1, but then. I have to stay back just for my extra classes for today's tuition. GOSH! :(

Forget all that, I'm tired of all this frustration.

I just want everything to be peaceful. I want my trials to finish ASAP. Thank God I don't have to go to school on Thursday :)

I have a day to relax at least :)

During trials I have 4 days that I'm free, which is oh so relaxing :)

I'm really scared about my BM and Accounting, the rest I'm pretty sure I'll do good :)

Well, just wish me luck. I don't think I'll be online for the next few days. So, toodles :)

This is some of the 411 :

I haven't seen you for so long and I miss you loads <3

Hoping to see you after my trials <3

Wondering what to get you too :)

*huggies*

0603'12

Mummy came to school and asked if I had class or not, I said no. Then she asked if I wanted to go or not. Then obviously I'd go and not stay in school-.-

So she said she wanted to go to the salon, she wanted to do her hair. Then she asked if I wanted to do mines, so why not I do it as well. :)

I had my hair cut and rebonded my hair and had a treatment. :)

Wheeee, I like my new hair :)

Thanks mummy :)

1103'12

While waiting for my tuition, I snapped pictures with my iPad :)

It was boring, so I simply took :)

Well, we all know it's a heart and it goes out to all my loved ones. :)

Specially xoxo <3

Sticky :)

Instagram is getting obsessive :P

I love taking pictures, even if it's the stupist thing, I'd still take it :)

Pictures are memories :)

So why not take it and save it :)

Michelle gave me some apps on doing this :)

Thanks Mich<3

1103'12

Randomly took this and edit it :)

I like it :)

0603'12

After my hair cut and all :) I like my layers :)

heh :D

Wedding Dinner at Melaka Club :)

0903'12 :)

Simple makeup :)

I can't wait to see you! :D
<3 <3

It's all about you, you you and it's all about me, me, me :)

That morning got home around 4+ and woke up before 8 and went for tuition.

That's like only 3 hours of sleep.

Was SO tired, but yet went for tuition.

After tuition, went to the gym. :)

Saw my friends :)

After that, wanted to eat lunch but instead left to the bus stop.

Waited for the bus to come and went to JJ. :)

Got to JJ and saw my friend who is also, ya know.

Awkward moment, but buat bodoh ny. :)

Walking around to wait for my friends.

Went to Coffee Bean and studied for a few hours.

Then my friend came with my friend who I saw earlier on.

The MOST awkward moment.

We sat 2 different tables but it was such an awkward moment.

I hate you Jonathan for not telling me! ;)

jk

Silence moment for the whole time and inside me felt so dayyymmmn weird and all.

Then I started to start a convo, but problem is that.

Talk-respond, talk-respond.

That was kinda annoying at first, but then kinda got used to it.

Then we had to decide what to eat, decided for so freakin long.

We decided after like half an hour?

We went to eat BBQ/steamboat. :)

Plus, if we have a student card we get 20% discount off. :D

WHHEEE :D

When we were eating, I had to like the 'mother' cook the meat and all for them apart from the guys lah, they did it them selves. :D

But, oh well. It's okay. :)

After eating, hungry AGAIN.

Went to food court to eat, I didn't eat.

When we were at food court I saw Michelle. :)

♥

Then I really had to go to the toilet, damn lol.

Went back to the food court then waited for ya'll to finish eating :)

After that, my friend had to go back.

Kesian her that she have to take bus all the way back to Sungai Udang.

Then, the 3 of us went walking around :)

Went to buy Chattime. :)

Walked around The Garden. :)

♥ A ♥ J ♥

It was a really nice day. :)

I enjoyed it A LOT.

You made me so happy that day♥

Even though we may have ups and downs, Iloveyounomatterwhat♥

I will still hold your hand and tell you that I'll always be yours♥

You made my day that day♥

There's no one special like you who would care so much, worry so much and accompany till late night♥

I'm so lucky to have someone like you♥

I love you to bits and pieces♥

I'm sorry if I do hurt you at times, but I don't mean it at all.

Immaloveyoutilltheveryend♥

♥Li Pin and I♥

♥Michelle and I♥

Whacky moments. :D

♥Janice and I♥

♥You and I♥

♥Iloveyouforeverandalways♥

:)

Stressed out.

Well, I have so many ups and downs recently.

Its better to forgive and forget right?

Nways, my week started off like crap.

The first Monday of studying in 2012. LOL

Senior now is sucking like hell. So much stress.

Tests are starting tomorrow and I am OH SO NOT READY.

Uni life is soon, thinking that I have like another 100 over days to go till my exams.

Then, UNIVERSITY.

So many things have changed, where to start though.

It's like all smooched up.

Getting upset easily and all. So stressed.

有时我觉得难过，我不知道为什么.

Nways, I don't know. I feel so stressed up and all.

Feels like crap.

When I need a shoulder to cry on, I need you♥

I always need you♥

No matter what♥

It has been more than half a year♥

Every relationship, there are always ups and downs.

No matter how or what, as long as you still love the person, it all counts.♥

When its' hard to say sorry, kiss and make up. :)

Sorry is a hard word to say at times, but only when you really mean it, SAY IT. If not, whats the point of saying it. Every time I say a single sorry, I mean it.

I don't like seeing a person sad or anything, no matter how or what. I'll try my very best to make you feel all better.♥

You know who you are :)

♥

'There's nobody like you.'

That's a defo, there is no one ever like you♥

Like I said,

Age, distance, height, or even weight is just a number because bottom line is, love is still there.♥

No matter where you and I are, no matter how far apart we are, I'll love you till the very end♥

No other guy would waste a single tear drop besides you♥

Sometimes, girls don't realise what they say to guys and it can be hurtful.

When you think back again, you'll feel the pain and it stays within you. You feel the guilt, but bottom of all, a sorry and a forgiveness fixes it all. *I hope* :)

Iloveyoutilltheveryend♥

These few months, A LOT of things changed.

Hmm, nothing much to say.

Just, IGCSE is pumping in my head.

It makes me more stress than ever.

I can't have a day without any peace.

School is getting more stressful day by day.

Whether to take Core or Extended papers.

Aiming for Distinction, but am I able to score all As?

:/

Life doesn't please everyone.

Well, lets hope for the best out of it. ;)

Bottom of all this, what I wanna say is that Imissyouawholelot♥

Days going out together, working out together, and other things me and you know. :)

I miss all that♥

I miss the old days, A LOT.

Things changed.

AND

It's gonna get less and less that I get to go out, IGCSE is making me so stressed up.

No time for anything. NOT even enough time to sleep.

Tuitions are all packed.

Well, lets hope I'll pass and score my IGCSE. :)

Sorry for the things I've done.

You should know what I mean. ;)

Sorry, from the bottom of my heart. ♥

Can't wait to see you REAL soon. :)

Ismurfinloveyou♥

I miss that saying. Imissalotofthings♥

Iloveyounomatterwhat♥

Imissyouuu♥

WXN♥

WAN♥

IWYWHWM♥

WXNBBLG♥

Whats happening?

Well, nothing much is happening.

Latest News is New Year's Eve.

Here's the latest picture :)

Enjoyed the night with you♥

A lot of stuff has happened.

There's nothing much to say.

Kinda moody at times, don't know why.

Stuffs on my mind and all.

Kinda get upset easily and I'm sorry.

Sometimes, I feel I'm useless.

Abit sensitive at times.

I miss you alot♥

Jealousy is a defo problemmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

I wish I could turn back time.

Words can't be spoken at times, but actions can tell it all.

Don't ever give up on anything, that's what I can say.

Well, there's not much to say here.

Days back then....

I miss it♥

Can't wait till tomorrow :D

IloveyouforaThousandYears♥

That song reminds me of you so much♥

It's 12am :) ♥

Iloveyouforeverandalways♥

Sorry for the ya know ;)

Remember our promise. x)

♥

*smooooch*