Cancer! :(

Finding out that one of your family members have cancer.

Its just horrifying!

Past days, I wasnt feeling myself.

Feeling that there is something wrong,but didnt know what.

Then on Wednesday, got a call saying emergency.

Wednesday night jaga grandpa. While my grandma n cousin went to see my other grandma.

Such a pity.

These days Ive been going to the hospital non-stop.

Talking, teman her.

Paying some of my last respects.

Yesterday my cousin rushed from Kedah back to Melaka to see our grandma.

She is already old d..93 year old lady.

Not many people live until their 90 something.

Im glad to have gandparents who still can see me grow.

Hoping they will still be here when I graduate.

Praying everyday.

Today went to the hospital, doctors say she is not going to make it through years.

She is only going make about 1-2 months max.

She cant eat,walk or anything.

Her legs ache n we need to move her leg up n down.

On the bed she needs to have 2 people carry her. :(

Havent been feeling right these days.

Sore throat..

Cough...

Worrying...

Tears...

Crying...

These few days,its not the same anymore.

Just feeling like last time.

Emoing abit...

Sadness abit..

The year has just started not long...bad things happen... :(



My friends: Im sorry. Honestly, I did not do anything. And I dont know why you're angry at me. I've never wanted to argue or anything. I love each one of you guys. You guys are just like siblings to me. We go through good and bad times together. We get in trouble together, we laugh together, we play together, we go out together. You guys are the best. I really do hope you guys would understand. But if Ive done anything wrong to you guys, Im really sorry. Please forgive me. I really dont want this to continue. We've been friends for so long. We all may have our ups and downs. I just miss you guys. :(

My family: I love you all. Im sorry if I have done anything bad or disrespect you all. You guys should know my attitude well enough. Im sorry for the ups and downs. You know Ive been hurt badly once, I wont get hurt again. I wont let such an ass hurt me again. I really miss being a real family and being together as a whole. Not being one here n another there. Its just not the same you know! Luckly family is getting closer n closer now. Waiting 13 days only from today. Counting day by day. Cant wait to see you. I love you.



PS:Pray for my grandma please! I beg!